Grieving and mourning are normal emotions in the event of a loss. These emotions are often referred to as a process, however it is more feasible to say "journey." Normally, when one is on a journey, there is a destination point...a point of reaching, if you will. Reaching that point does not mean that you will not have painful memories, it does not mean that you will not have days of tears; even uncontrollable ones. And it certainly does not mean that you no longer love you departed one.
Grieving does happen in stages. These stages are commonly known as:
1. Denial and Isolation
However, let it be known that God is the Source of our Comforter. Jesus tells us in John 14:1 not to let our hearts be troubled. Further in verse 16, He tells us, "And I will pray the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may abide with you forever-
Below, are 365 days of Scripture inspired readings that can assist you in your grieving journey. This journey is ultimately a personal experience. Nobody can really help you "go" through or understand your journey "exactly". Nobody can feel all of the emotions that you feel. But others can be there for you and help comfort you, if only its just by being there silently. It's normal to be want to be alone, shutting everyone out, but its not healthy.
And most of all, make sure You are in a right standing relationship with your Savior. Physical death is inevitable.
I pray that these daily readings are of some comfort.